Do you often ride a high of thankfulness … and then quickly forget?
I’m guilty.
I mentioned in a recent post that CJ and I are having communication issues, and just general martial-funk issues. I’m guilty. It’s not all him. As easy as it can be to blame the other … I know I’m guilty.
I’ve stopped trying. I feel myself stepping back and closing off. Sometimes it’s easier that way isn’t it? Than to face the problem and get to the bottom of it?
Every morning I find myself praying to be a better wife … a beacon of God’s way for our family … for my husband. But each day I find myself failing.
This weekend {away in Chicago} was good for CJ and I. We needed it. Desperately.
We held hands … a lot.
When I got frustrated … I quieted my voice.
I thanked him for each meal he bought. For spending the weekend with me.
What struck me most though … he bought me a special gift. And I was happy. And thankful. And thoughtful of the fact, that most times I’m thankless.
Do we thank our husbands when they buy us a meal? When they hold our hands. Or hold a door open? Or even let you on the elevator first.
Most times I don’t. Most times I forget. Take for granted … after all it’s what a husband is suppose to do, isn’t it?
I posted almost a year ago {here, here and here} about the most wonderful surprise birthday party ever that CJ threw for me. He took over year to plan it. I was in awe. I was in love. I thought I would never forget the feeling of thankfulness I had. I pretty much thought he’d banked brownie points til death.
I was wrong. I forgot those feelings of thankfulness … so quickly, I’m ashamed of myself.
And why is it I can get all happy and thankful as soon as I get something my way again?
That’s not the woman I want to be, nor is it what I want to model to my children. Not to mention what God wants from me … or my husband.
I wanted to post this video as a very important reminder to myself … how blessed I am. How thankful I am. How I have much to be thankful for. Even in times of riding waves of sorrow or sickness … I want to be able to give thanks without having to think twice about it.
What am I unwrapping for you today? My prayer for you is the simple gift of thanks. In all we do, in all we have … in all we don’t have. Everyday … in every circumstance … may we be thankful.
